know wat yterday...peiyian called me when i m on my way hm in e mrt train, she jus quarrel wif her parent and she jus nid a person who understand her to lent her a listening ear...so i jus lent her my listening ear...she cried on e phone...and she mention abt her passed away grandfather which dote her and understand her...n she told me tt she wish tt she can see her grandfather...n she really miss him...but do she know i also hv a grandfather tt dote me from young and passed alway too...when she mention abt her grandfather, i nearly cried out coz when i think or tok abt my grandfather my tear will start to roll down...yterday i was so helpless...my friend was nt ard me and i was alone...and i could nt tok to any1 even can i do nt know hw to start my pro...=(
wat can i do was jus to hide in my room and cried whole nite jus lye wat i m doing tonite...whole nite jus do my cryin enough le...actually i 1 2 start revise my accountin de...but my heart tonite is nt study...my whole mind was thinkin e pro i hv and think solution on hw to solve e pro...
today although i hv many pro i still joke and laugh ard wif my friends and treat it as nthing happen...hmmm...is really nt feelin so good when u r nt really tt wish to laugh or joke ard but u still pretend to do so...e feelin in heart is nt really good...but i hv no choice...i nid to be stronge but i was so helpless nw...and feel tt i was such a failure lei...i dunno hw to be stronge anymore...coz i onli know hw to hide in my room and cry...
i try to get my best friend and wanted to find a listener too but nt today...haiz...properly she slp le ba...haiz...=(
